My room is almost totally packed up. One more final, thirty checkouts, closing down the building, drive to Long Beach, fly through the night... and then I'm home.

I started out this whole year sad, distraught, hopeless, overwhelmed; but I made it. And I'm happy now.

I'm just so so so glad to be going hooooome.

But you don't believe when I say
that it won't be alright.

 "You're doing it wrong!"
"The important thing is that I'm doing it."

I just wanted to remember this, because when I have been getting discouraged lately I just think of that. Maybe I look like a doofwad... that passes and the important thing is that I did it. lol when I think of grad school this is what I am trying to remember when I feel like I can't do it. 

Remember that time I was quitting caffeine?

I'm pretty sure the like five shots I got today undermine those efforts.

Dear future roommate,
I hope you do not mind having a roommate who:
-walks around/sleeps only in her underwear
-frequently dreams/hallucinates spiders and wakes up in the middle of jumping out of bed
-would rather live in filth and freedom than be tethered to the bonds of cleanliness (read: is a total slob)
-cannot survive in a room warmer than 68 degrees
-fluctuates between staying up until 3am every day, and going to bed by 10.30pm

And, best of all, my dear future roommate... I hope that you do not mind, as a freshman, living with the RA who possesses all of the aforementioned qualities.

Look forward to meeting you!

Your roomie,
Jocelyn <3

So my dad is yelling at this lady right now, and I AM ABSOLUTELY CRINGING because it's his YOU'RE IN TROUBLE VOICE. Ahhh scary!!!!

Saw The Pianist today. I am falling in love with Adrien Brody, so quickly. But it is one of the saddest movies I have ever seen.

Don't have to work tomorrow. Hopefully good things will happen tonight.  

Worked 6.30-11am today. Last night I went to bed at 11, because I had to get up at 5.30. Of course, I woke up at 12.30 sweating my butt off and really scared of those creepy things from The Strangers. "YOU'RE GONNA DIE"... "BECAUSE YOU WERE HOME."  Tried to sleep, finally gave up at around 1.30 and just turned on my computer. Watched Kathy Griffin and talked to Shaked until after 3am. Went to sleep finally, woke up, went to work. Almost friggin cut my arm off. Spilled a frappuccino two times. Went to Somerville and had bfast with the rents, my brother and his new gf. Came home. WATCHED THE PIANIST AND DIED A LITTLE INSIDE.

Should I visit him? I don't know what to do!
Let's take a poll: yes? or no?

I would like to retract my previous post. While it remains one of my major pet peeves, last night was SO fun. Love those guys.

Summer... I do not know what it will bring. I can only assume it will be hilarious, infuriating, emotional, really hard, and really fun.

Pet peeve: When people have not even LEFT THEIR HOUSES after the time they were supposed to BE at your house. lol sorry for being late so many times, Rach, it was INCREDIBLY annoying I'm sure. Because this is ridiculously obnoxious. Srsly, just stay home. What is the point of going somewhere at nine pm?    

Make a note in the book. When we get our new world order, I want a big fucking tank.

Some days hum with unspectacular goodness
where it just feels good to be alive.

Your heart is a river that flows from your chest through every organ.

sucks. It's 5.30am annnnd I'm just getting into bed. I will still probably read some more webcomics before i actually turn out the light. I always do this when I come home, it's really weird.

I am so sick  right now. My throat hurts, and my glands are killing me, and I am not a happy individual. Sad day for me FTL :o( 

So... it's almost 2.30am. I'm leaving here in like 12 hours. It's sad, but I'm excited to go back. I hope I'm not too much of a mess when I leave--I don't think I cried at all when I left breaks last year. I also get really over emotional when I am tired. Anyway.

Best quote from work tonight: "Caffeine gets me hard."
HAH context would be important to properly interpret that statement... but I'm not going to give it to you! Enjoy as is.
Also, I got COVERED in mocha tonight. And not in the sexy way. So gross, cuz then the fuzzies from my clothes stick the the syrup on my skin, but I am tooo tiiiiired to take a shower right noooow.

Watching Friday Night Lights right now. It's on until 2.30am, so hopefully it's not very good and i will be able to go to sleep before then. But already i'm loving the music. Explosions in the Sky did the whole soundtrack, and they're so good, and their music has such a place in my heart, I love it so much already.

Did they replace Katie Holmes with Maggie Gyllenhaal in the new Batman movie? I just checked. Yeah, it's true. Good, I can't stand Holmes. Not that I'm a huuuuuge fan of maggie gyllenhaal (her brother on the other hand... now that's a different story), something about her kind of irritates me. But I still think she's good, whenever I've seen movies with her.
P.S. I LOOOOOOOOOOVE rescue me. I wish I could watch it more. I think that's probably my biggest guilty pleasure.


I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side